non-retreat

this week is Retreat at escuela caribe - much like summer camp. i have been so looking forward to hearing from the speaker we invited and serving the congregation on the worship team - i've been ready for a change of pace and time of refreshment. but here it is friday, Retreat ending tomorrow, and i've missed over half of it. i was off the first day and then yesterday and today was spent at the hospital with one of my girls who got a severe concussion during one of the games yesterday.
i wonder what the Lord wants me to see; if i have the eyes to see; and if i have the eyes, i wonder if they are open. there are so many other things to look at - how do i see Jesus thru it all?